That is what brought me to writing this blog - my first birthday. One year ago, I died to myself, my sin, my old ways, and was made alive in Christ, accepting Him as my Lord and savior. Leaving the world behind me, I walked through the year singing:
"The cross before me, the world behind me. No turning back, no turning back. Though none go with me, I still will follow."
I will not lie to you and say this year was easy. Nobody said it would be.
“In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33 NIV)
The week before my baptism, I remember discussing my decision with a good friend. I was excited and looking forward to the upcoming Sunday. I remember her saying: "You know, baptism doesn't just fix everything." Well yeah I knew that, it's just a step of obedience. Saying yes to God.
Throughout the year, I slowly learned that my friends blunt words were correct, and I was faced with what seemed like endless struggle. One thing after another seemed to pile up until I couldn't handle it. I was drowning in my struggle, not even trying to get out. I was overwhelmed with the thoughts, feelings, and reality of life.
I was searching. Searching for answers, understanding, comfort, anything and everything. I was missing the point. I already had everything I needed - right in front of my face. I learned how to get out of the pit.
Just say Jesus!
Yeah, you read it right. Just say Jesus.
"When you don't know what to say
Just say JesusThere is power in the name
The name of Jesus
If the words won't come
Cause you're to afraid to pray
Just say Jesus"
-Just say Jesus by 7eventh Time Down
Whisper it, or shout it out:
When you're lost - just say Jesus.
When you're confused - just say Jesus.
When you're hopeless - just say Jesus.
When you feel alone - just say Jesus.
When you can't go on - just says Jesus.
Whatever you do - just say Jesus.
I had found what I was looking for. And I had already had it all along - Jesus.
He is my hope.
He is my rock.
He is my strength.
He is my light.
He is my Lord.
He is my friend.
He is my lover.
He is my savior.
He is my understanding.
He is my comfort.
He is my safety.
He is my hiding place.
He is my life.
He is my everything.
One year ago, I was raised to life in Chist. For I was dead in my sin, but now I rise. I have found my true family. No, not family by blood, but church family. Brothers and sisters in Christ. That's where I learned it's ok to struggle. That's where I experienced unconditional love. That's where I do life. I have love. I have life. And it is time to celebrate my friends:
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=qEvEVALLjNQ
Happy birthday!!! I'm so thankful to God for saving you! You are His beloved Child and you are dearly loved! I love your writing! Keep sharing your amazing story!
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