I have learned one main point over the summer: God is able. God is not only able, but he is able to do immeasurably MORE than we could ever ask or think. I've really been convicted about the power of prayer. God has taught me that if I pray, knowing and believing He is able to do what I am asking of Him, He will come through. Always.Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us. Ephesians 3:20
I started this summer by praying for healing. Didn't know what that looks like, didn't really know what that meant, but all I know is I wanted God to heal me. I wanted to find peace in Him. Praying for healing started by asking God to change my heart. Soften my heart. Tear down the walls I've been building. I knew I needed God to expose all the brokenness in my heart. I knew that once the dark, broken parts in my heart are exposed to the light - that is where the healing begins. Right there, in the presence of our loving and merciful Father. Well, like always, God came through. In the past few weeks, God changed my life...He seems to do that quite often!
Where was Jesus in the room?
This question forever changed my life.
I've always heard "God is always with you." I've always known it in my head, but I have rarely felt it in my heart.Never will I leave you...Never will I forsake you.
I was describing a melt-down I had to a friend, when out of the blue she asks "Where was Jesus in the room?" What? I laughed..."What do you mean?" She was dead serious "Physically-where was Jesus in the room?" I imagined the room and myself, crying on the couch...I hesitated. "Did you get something?" she asked. "He was sitting on the ground next to me...asking me why I was going to the depths of my mind rather than reaching out to Him. "
Think about that. Jesus was in the room. He was there, I just was blind to his presence. He was there. He came and sat on the floor next to me. Think about that. The King of Kings sat on the ground for me, a sinner.
God didn't stop reveling himself there. One night as I was laying face down on my floor, playing the memory of saying good-bye to Ryan for the last time in my head, there was something different. Memories like this used to haunt me. Flash through my mind over and over again, moving a thousand miles per hour. This time it was different. It wasn't flying by. It was slow. Peaceful. As Ryan walked up the stairs and called out "See ya later, Rachel!" and I turned to say good-bye, he wasn't alone. Jesus was there with His arm around him. He did not say anything, but I knew what He was telling me. "It's ok. He's in my hands now." I squeezed my eyes even tighter and began crying. I felt peace. I felt safe in God's presence. Yes, I still have questions. No, they will never be answered in this world. But the peace I've found through God revealing Himself to me can't compare to any half answer I could find in this world.
I know God is with me. I am 100% confident. Even when I can't feel Him. Even when I'm not sure where Jesus is in the room...I know He is here. Knowing God is on my side gives me confidence to do what I am called to do. Knowing He calls me mighty when I'm weak allows me to see myself through His eyes.
We as humans have zero power. Unless God is in it. If God is in it, anything is possible. God chose you. He has a specific plan, just for you! He put you in the game. You are on the winning team. You can't lose. The fight has already been won. Swing the bat. Take the shot. Run the race. What are you waiting for?
Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have command you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.
-Matthew 28:19-20
